Monday, August 1, 2011

I've never been so broken[Song]

I've never been so broken as to sigh at empty pages
I've never been so broken as to blame anyone for my hatred
I've never seen a sunrise so bleak
Never crumbled in less than one week
But then why every time I see you I still smile?

You moved on quick
You got away fast
And I'm still caught up in the past
I'm in the dust
I've hit the bottomless pit
Remember, when you warned me about it

A while ago
When I used to know
You so well
Now everyday I try to look away
This is the first time I've felt anything close to Hell

I guess now
It's for sure
That all your thoughts
Are of her
So why can't
I sleep?

I've never been so broken as to throw my middle finger to the sunset sky
I've never been so broken as to just wonder "Why can't I die?"
I've never
I've never
I've never felt this way
And I'm suspended in between love and hate

Why can't I barricade a thought of you
It just blasts me into
Another night of memories
Another night of cries and pleas
But you've forgotten about me.
My God you've forgotten about me
And I'll always think of you every day...

But I've never been so broken as to lie awake and cry the night away.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Hey Look Another Song:D

Sometimes I wish I could run away from all the pain
Fuck the umbrella, just go dancing in the rain
We're running to the land of Oz
In rain, snow, sun or fog we'll go
There's so much to show

Hold my hand, we can make it
Hurricane, we can take it
Don't restrain, never fake it
Won't complain, we can shake it

Dusting off our shoulders with our heads held high
No pain, no gain, the people of the world cry
So I'll endure the weather
But if it never gets better
Imma blame you [sorry] for ever and ever
It wont be your fault lets not forget,
When the thunder is coming and we get a little wet
We'll walk in the thunderstorm
But you're still by my side so my smile stays warm

I'm like oh, boy you really got my hopes held high
No matter the color of the sky
I'll always be lost in your eyes
Because I'm so mesmerized

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

And I'm

Swimming through a sea of pain
burning my skin like acid rain
and I'm falling.
and I'm falling.


No one seems to hear my screams
or see the tears that mark my dreams
and I'm crying.
and I'm crying.


I am hiding all my cuts
shameful, painful, deep red ruts,
and I'm praying.
and I'm praying.


A storm cloud's raining on my head
I'm partially alive, but dead
and I'm hoping.
and I'm hoping.


You promised, you promised me but then, again, I see
and I'm falling and I'm crying and I'm praying and I'm hoping and I'm fighting


For You.
My eyes remain dry
I can't cry anymore
I miss you already; it's Hell
and I'm so torn
the walls of the world crumble around me
only thoughts of you surrounding my heart
where do I start?
I'm shattered, broken, choking on tears 
because my pansy fears are true-
but I never want to go to school because I'll die of missing you.

Now.

Is the future worth the present-
is the past so long ago? 
How long has it been since winter-
it's been ages since the snow.
The present is now, the past- the last word you read. 
You won't ever go back or forward in time,
despite what scientists said.


You may cast your predictions
You may look at history
But you'll never EVER see again what your eye of the present sees.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Your Eyes

Distract me with your eyes
That jump around the room
the bright sun glistening
through a foggy autumn afternoon
dewdrops form into rainbows
as your eyes, they melt to gold
your face is hypnotizing- 
           It tells stories that have never been told.

Separate

When the sky is sunlit, and blooming with the morning-
or when the clouds are blackened, when the sky is scorning-
the people of these darkened days
will fight to go their separate ways


Changing-Smiling-Crying


the world will ever be.